Monday, November 19, 2012


I've never waited so long to break out the Christmas music. Last year it was November 2nd. Today is November 19th and I've put it on my Pandora. I feel warm, happy, and inwardly fuzzy. (That's a good thing.) I'm so relived. I'm scared to dislike the holidays. Years ago my sister's dad died on the exact same day as Penny, December 17th, she hates December. I'm so thankful that's not me, at least not yet. I still think I'm doing pretty good. :)

Saturday, November 17, 2012


Had a very vivid dream about Penny last night. Her birthday is approaching and I'm thinking of her even more lately. In my dream, sometimes Penny wasn't Penny, she was my next baby. It was odd.. but whoever she was I was beside myself. I cried with happiness constantly. I couldn't hold her very well, though. She was still very small, and I was convinced I was holding her wrong. I kept laying her on my bed or couch and just stared at her. Overall it was a really weird dream, but, it's November and I'm extremely thankful for it, and it was wonderful.